I'm really sorry
Hi, hi everyone - or whoever is still around! It's been...let's see...four years? Yup. Four. It's kind of hard to put things into words at this point. A lot has changed since I last logged in and looking at everything now is like sifting through a time capsule. It's bizarre. Four years ago I suddenly stopped logging in and honestly, I stopped drawing. Looking back through my gallery, it's kind of sad I abruptly stopped picking up my pen. Not that I was a great talent, but I certainly cannot draw like that now (what the heck is even creativity). More importantly though, I realize I disappeared without much of a word to anyone, not even my friends. I was in the middle of a big move, stepping into grad school...and I lost touch with everyone. I carelessly forgot what you all meant to me. I've never been great at keeping in touch, but regardless, I'm really sorry for leaving without even a goodbye. But most of all, I'm really sorry I didn't keep in touch, really. Whether I was drawing or not, I should have treasured my friends more instead of disappearing. As busy as I may have been, it takes two seconds to reach out. And now it's been four years. I've earned my masters, struggled through COVID, moved onto a PhD, immigrated to an entirely different country...It's kind of crazy looking back here and wondering where my friends are now. Are you still drawing? How has your style changed? Have you found new hobbies? Interests? What are you like now? Are you someone I'd recognize? Would you recognize me? How have I changed in your eyes? I know saying "I'm sorry" over and over doesn't mean I deserve forgiveness, but I'm truly sorry I lost touch with you all. I hope all of you are doing well and I sincerely, sincerely hope you're all still drawing! I miss seeing your art, your messages, and bullshitting on Skype (although let's be thankful Skype is no longer "a thing" 'cause man did it suck). I miss you all more than I can say - I really wish I had better words to express how much you've been missed. And how much you all still mean to me, whether you've long forgotten me or not. Logging back into this time capsule and seeing old messages has really been so, so bittersweet. I can't say I will be permanently back or will pick up my pen again (I'm kinda scared to try drawing again actually, haha!), but I do miss it, and of course all of you. And I hope maybe to hear from some of you and know you're still out there, creating art and doing your own wonderful things. The vast majority of my time on here was positive and I had the pleasure of interacting with such lovely people. Here's to hoping you're all thriving out there, wherever you are. And whether or not I'm just a distant memory to you, thank you all so, so much for the time you spent with me over the years in this weird little corner of the internet! With much love, Liv